Tue, 24 Mar 2009 02:16:21 GMT

So I started going to therapy again. I don't know if it's helping at all. Or going to help. But I like her, my therapist, I really do. She seems a lot more normal than the last chick and I definitely respect her more. But I'm still backing out of it, I've cancelled/rescheduled 2 appts. I'm really busy at work but she wanted me to go inpatient and I can't even commit to a once a week appt.
So, it did make me feel validated I guess, that she seemed so concerned. She definitely recommended me for a "higher level of care". She wants me to go inpatient based on the frequency and duration of my b/ping. But I told her I couldn't do it right now. So she wants me to see a nutritionist, a psychiatrist and made me get a physical. That's the one I think I f'ed up my blood tests for by b/ping beforehand when I was supposed to be fasting. I'm bulimic I can barely go 14 mins without consuming something let alone 14 hrs. grrr. what do they expect. sigh. Anyway, friend/bf situation is the same. Life is hectic as ever...I guess I've been doing pretty bad lately. I don't know. I'm really depressed about my financial situation. I waste so much money b/ping. It's a disaster.

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 14:15:10 GMT

I just can't get motivated. I don't know what's wrong with me, I keep putting it off. I'll just wait till my Mom visits. I'll just wait till this week is over. I'll just wait till I pay off my bills and start out fresh. I need to just do this!!

Tue, 20 Feb 2007 21:49:46 GMT

Tomorrow life starts again. No more copping out with this b/p stuff. I'm stronger than this...I just need to formulate another plan that works.

Fri, 19 May 2006 18:31:55 GMT

testing

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